Christmastime was promising to be magical this year. Even with my mother in law soon in coming, there wasn't the "stress" that is normally associated with visits with her.
Then 4 days before Christmas, same day as my MIL was arriving by plane in Dallas-2.5 hours away, just as I was leaving to get the last of the Christmas presents, Lolipop snapped her left femur. It happened in an instant right in front of me, just out of reach. Her leg clearly deformed I began calling doctor offices- drive to Dallas or go local, all the while thinking that MIL is COMING TONIGHT! Our Dallas specialist said go local to stabilize, so we did. The day after breaking her leg, after a night in the hospital for 'surgery' to set her leg, we finally get a call back setting up an appointment for the 29th. I was frustrated that it would take so long to see the doctor, but knew even doctors liked having a Christmas (I was trying extremely hard to be patient and understand). Today we got a call saying that the doc has "emergency surgery" tomorrow and we cannot be seen for another week.
I am angry. I am tired. I feel like I am sinking into a depression. The last week has revolved around trying to keep Lolipop comfortable- pain medication every three hours, bed ridden, breakthrough pain, using a bed pan, suppositories. Then there is trying to keep my MIL (who has frontal lobe dementia) on track. I have heard so many times that I look tired from her that I want to scream! Needless to say Christmas lost some (more like a lot) of the magic this year. Because on top of all of that there is the new puppy we got two weeks before Christmas that still isn't sleeping through the night AND we have five other kids who have needs! Z man and J Daddy have volunteered feeding Lolipop, almost made me cry when they offered (thinking about it makes me cry). They did wonderful with her and so has everyone else.
I am going to make some calls tomorrow because of conflicting information that we've been given. Like- if she fractures bring her here (Dallas). And that we got bumped tomorrow because the doctor has 'emergency surgery', but when I called with our 'emergency' we couldn't be seen, since they 'don't do' emergencies. We need prayer. We so need prayer for wisdom and direction and the ability to wait until next week if necessary. I know broken bones hurt and I can understand that being immobilized in a spica cast is uncomfortable, but my daughter who has walked around on two legs with healing fractures (not even healed enough to convince our local ortho to not cast one) and twice walked around with a broken fibula and only once said each time that her leg hurts has got to be in some sort of world of hurt if ANY movement causes her to cry out in pain. The local doc only got the bone about 75% aligned, hence her continued pain, because he thought we would be seen by our specialist in Dallas!!!!......
Please be in prayer that we get answers. Get past the nurse that is stonewalling us. Get help for Lolipop.
3 comments:
Jennifer--that is so not fun! I know that you are probably only sharing the tip of the iceberg. Please know that I am praying for you! Not much more I can do from here. You might make a list of things you think others could do for you, so when people say, "How can I help?" you have something to tell them. My mind would just go blank when I was under the stress of years past..... :) ((hugs))
we are praying too. i think connie made a great suggestion. please let us know if there is something we can do to help. a meal?! i would love to cook for you sometime. please let me know when would be a good time. just email me and let me know the dietary restrictions...or preferences. :)
@ Connie, Thank you for the words of encouragement and the idea of having a helps list.
@ Stacey, I will email you.
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